Friday, November 27, 2009

用鸳鸯奶茶来开始,结尾也用鸳鸯奶茶来结束。。。


或许在其他人眼中
“它”只是一杯普通的奶茶
但在我眼中,“它”却是意义非凡的“奶茶"

开始的那杯鸳鸯奶茶,
并不用自己用金钱来买
因为那独特的“鸳鸯奶茶”
是他人带着全心的心意泡制成的
也是意想不到的收获

那是一杯
一杯让我开始我的人生
开始我个人的故事
也开始让我学习珍惜的鸳鸯奶茶

也或许是因为我学习珍惜
所以才会在乎
更觉得“它”带来的种种“悲伤”

但到最后,
我还是决定用“它”来结束一切
结束的那杯鸳鸯奶茶
是我自己买来的
虽然是远远不及开始的那一杯
但却还是会让我得到一点点的欣慰

只因为
“它”是一个让我学习成长中的回忆
一个很“美好”的回忆。。。

或许这样
才是最好的结局
至少,在未来的日子
我不会后悔
因为我曾经拥有。。你的一段回忆。。。

Thursday, November 19, 2009

I’m burning with full of angry TODAY!!!

For the 1st times, I get such angry..
It is really hurt and pain..
Why should I face the truth that I don’t wish to have.

I started to doubt and think..
“What is FRIEND for?”
-Someone that can be trust?
-Someone that might help me when I need help?-
-Someone that will care about me?
-Someone who will share along me feeling?
Or even someone who will always support me?

Maybe the feeling just start after we start the friendship ?
Maybe just because I care them that much?
Maybe it happens when I don’t realize while have fun with them?

I always tell myself;
don’t put too much care inside..
Cause I would be the one who always get hurt at last.
I always tell myself;
to be patient with people..
Cause I don’t want to start EMO and make a mistake.
I always tell myself;
treat my friends sincerely
Cause I wish I won’t hurt anyone.

But what happens?
It is hurt..
I really don’t know..
Why you all trying to force me like that?

It makes me hard to breath..
It makes me need to wear mask while facing people from now on..
And I know I still Full of Angry by now..
So, please lets me alone..
Lets me alone..
I don’t want to see myself to broke the bond..
I don’t let myself have chances to scold people
It is unfair to them..